Today , i keep on thinking of the same phrase-"Tomorrow will be my last paper".
I used to look forward to tomorrow , cause a promise from you is that you'll wait till after o lvl.
How would i know you didnt mean what you said?
You left me a broken girl today.
After the clock ticks at 9am tomorrow, it spells the end of my o lvl.
Who am i supposed to run to?Who am i supposed to spend my holidays with?
I've never ache this much losing any boy.Instead , i do ditch them.
I wonder why i feel so scared of losing you , and when it just happened , i could only break down.
I hate it when night time falls , cause i cant seem to close my eyes and head to my lala-land.
If this is how love tastes like , i'd rather not be in love anymore.
Everyone said , "move on".but you know i cant , i just cant.
No more 17th for me , no more love from you.
And now what hurts me more is that i received a friendster message from his brother.
I'll only copy some part.
"he say u control hym
sorry i cnt change anything...it his life and he made his own decision...
Do cheer up and move forward and i n0e how u feel"
Dang.
Nabilah , as my closest friend , do you think im controlling him?
If i did , do tell me when?
I dunnoe how to feel , sad or mad?
Boy , i've never controlled your life.I kept my mouth shut when you stay away from me.
Im totally lost.
What must i do tomorrow?
Ouh yah shopping with friends at bugis-.-"
That wasnt what i planned at first.Not with them , but with you.
But now im depending on my girls to keep me moving.
I've loved you , and i always will.
Someday when you've found another one , i'll just wish you happiness.
Cause you used to tell me "i dont like to see u sad , cause i love you".
Well i do.
Books , pictures , messages.I find it so hard to make it a part of memory.
My 1year and 6months.Poof!its gone.
And i'll stop here.
♥loved
9:12 PM
November 10, 2008