Every morning I wake up, hoping to receive a text message from you the night before.
Everyday I come online, waiting for you to, checking emails and Friendster to see what's new about you. Visiting your blog once in a while to see how's your life turning out to be like.
Every night, I'd fall asleep waiting for you to send me a good night message, like you always did before.
But no. All I'm left with is false hope. Where are you when I need you most? And right now I really do.
Every cell, atom, molecule in me is going to explode if you keep treating me this way. I've missed you. Very, very much. That, I cant deny.
But do you? Do you even know still I exist on Earth? Do you know how I've been patiently waiting?
And one fine day, you finally come online. Excited, I clicked on your name, chat with you. But no, it doesn't seem like you even bother to reply.
Why is this happening to us?
What have I done resulting in you avoiding me this way? Do you think I enjoy this hostility? Do you know how much you've hurt me? I don't think so. Because you are out there having fun.
How'd you feel if I lie to you? If I keep things from you? If I never forgive you and keep a distance between us. Think. It's how I feel now.
I don't know whether I'm being all paranoid and caught up or do you just seem to have more time to spend with your friends than with me, Your Girlfriend. A simple thing like toping up your prepaid so
that we could still be in touch despite our busy schedule seems like an awfully heavy task for you.
This really shows how you're taking this relationship..
You know, I still have the butterflies when I go out with you, when you hold my hand. I get all excited and I'll squeal when I receive a text message from you.
But no, I don't think that's ever going to happened now will it?
I admit that i hate it when new girls keep entering your life.Fact is , im afraid you wont turn back to me after knowing how great they can be.Like how you turn to me , getting to know me only through friendster ,getting close only by chatting and end up together.
All because of i am "that-msn-girl who-always-cheer-you-up-when-you're-being-ditched-by-your-gf"
Now if you think i've ditched you and you've found that new girl , then how are we going to make it through?
Freedom?I've never controlled your life.I've never controlled anyone's life before.
If im controlling you , i'll pester you to meet me every single day.At times , you left me hanging for God-knows how long.
I am pissed off when you said im controlling your life.Ever since when?Not meeting you for almost 2 months already , still say im controlling?
Cast your ego away cause i've already thrown mine when i apologized to you the other day.
I just want you back dearest. I really do. I want the guy that I've gone head over heels for,
and still is for almost 17 months now.
♥loved
1:31 PM
September 15, 2008